It would take so many words to describe what has been happening in my soul over the past 2 months. I made the life-changing decision to attend a seminar… and I’ve been a bit of a mess (in a good way!) ever since. I learned so much about myself and my husband… I learned how the conflicts happen and how to deflect them. I’m going to be honest here… while I feel we have a pretty good marriage, we had completely forgotten how to communicate and since my husband and I are both “cave-dwellers”, we retreated into silent caves at the first shadow of a conflict. July 23 was our 13th anniversary and we went out for dinner, but had nothing to say. It was an incredibly awkward evening… the next day I stepped into a room of 83 other broken souls and together we dug through our junk and came through smiling on the other side. I had to wait 6 weeks for my husband to go through the process but that happened this past weekend and I’m happy to say our home will never be the same.
It wasn’t rocket science, the things we learned in that room, but it unlocked what I’d forgotten was inside of me. So many many things I’d forgotten… like how to play, how to take care of myself so I could be the best mom/wife/sister/daughter/friend, and… as you’ve all noticed… I’d forgotten my gift of writing. My blog got neglected, and the longer I didn’t write, the less I missed it. I tried so hard to be everything to everyone and I was exhausted and resentful. God walked through the seminar with me that week… he handpicked the people that needed to surround me and help me.
God created me with a love of writing. It’s a gift. A gift I was discarding, but I’m happy to say I’ve found it again and there’s a light flickering in my writing soul once again!